new plans..new objectives.

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dear readers,

Have you ever felt like you should move on with your life…like others…means…..? Dislike the current phase of your life. I know most of you do…..girl

Like some of you ….I am also feeling offended ….when I read my blog posts ….from beginning  till end… (Up to this date…)

And after going through all my post ….. I think   I should   reboot my blog in a new manner now. Don’t   worry I would give the link as soon as I will start ….it…because I am going to work on it from Jan 2018.

It could be a dark comic about life …..Or simple illustrated art comic story …. From; the very beginning ….   I am going to do it in novice/ profession way as I want to start my practice as an artist…Please click the link to read original post ⇒https://anelife16.blogspot.com/2017/11/i-want-some-new-objectives-in-lifenew.html

MY B’Day diary 

Saale kisi ko bhi mera birthday Yaad nhi)  Facebook main alert ka wait kyu karte hai.

One whole day/ night  and some truth.

Ok I don’t know how many of you will going read this…but this post is  actually about my views towards life. I am writing this post at 10:40…pm at eve of my birthday…which means after just few hour l will be 26yr. 

When I write 26…I actually feel awkward as it mean l am 26yr old person but by heart I am just 15…I am still trying to sort out things… well about statement which I made about my heart being 15 is utter lie… I am actually 26yr  and I also think like 26yr…but sometimes I behave like 10 years 😆😆.

Ok let just come to main subject of my post… I was thinking that when we grow up we start knowing people and how one person could be different from other…

Last year, I was feeling little low about how my life is now totally changed and I am left alone. 

This year the ..thing is ; I want to hide…because I don’t want to meet anyone new …I have started hating actual world…..
I see truth of life…and I feel everything thing is vain. 

There are reasons behind such feelings. 

A man gets married because,  he wants cook /maid/wife/ for himself.  Means woman is still secondary element.

A woman gets married because she don’t want to be single for life time and want a  ATM  …who should support her and her family and still want to live her life like free woman. 

A boss is always right…a even though we know sometimes he is wrong . (By his thought) 

People know about your difficulty ;but can’t help you because ,they don’t want to and want to be safe

Money is every thing…it make wrong people,right. 

You can’t help others unless you help yourself. 


Above points are some bitter truth I recently observed…and there are more…. but you know I am lazy in explaining everything  . It just that I  know; I have to live life this way…I can turn things better only when I turn them good for me. 

And what about the other half of my life….like what about my love interest, my family etc…

The things are good means I am not thinking too deeply now a days….because one day everyone has to die

7 AM 

I slept…..it’s morning now. And it’s my birthday! Yes, I am waiting for my birthday wishes. My colleagues  have no idea about my birthday…wondering whether I should treat them or not. 

It depends whether they know about it or not..

In fact  my own father had not wished me…but he loves me and that’s why he is living with me.

Which reminds me something which my boss said-“ when you go home(room)? Do You cook  your own meal??” it was a question. Because he knows I don’t know how to cook properly. 

Then it suddenly strike in my head “why is it expected that woman should  always be  good @cooking or should know how to cook”.

I could have said something witty, but as usual   I smile and said “my father helps me to cook ”.

Why don’t these men (Men who don’t believe in equity ) understand that the  world is changing. Household responsibilities are not only for women but also for men.

12 PM 

Guess what? Not a good day so far.

I got wishes from my mom and one of sister friend whom I consider as sister. But no wishes from my friends…although they are liking my profile pic in Facebook. 😆😆iss ke alwa bhi kuch karate nhi. 

1:30 pm 

Dozing like anything…

I want to leave.. but😜 I can’t leave my work  .

10:PM 

I am finally at home with My family. I back to myself….

So, it’s ending of the day… almost end of birthday and still waiting for more(or less expected once ) wishes   … may be tomorrow some confused people will wish me…I realize even if I try too much; it’s  hard to create my place in their heart.  I don’t worth it.   So for those who still think about me and care for me. I am  there in hearts. 😏😶. I love them…they know.

P.S.1 I hate my so called crush, boyfriend, and friends (Saale kisi ko bhi mera birthday Yaad nhi)  Facebook main alert ka wait kyu karte hai.😛😛😛

P.S. 2 I am actually feeling bad and I wish I could say something mean to them.  

My life Progress 

A lot of things have also change in my personal life also… 

A lot of time we turn back to see how much ahead we have come.

A week before I once again started dating …and I know he (my secret boyfriend) feels it too….but he is little shy. 
https://anelife16.blogspot.in/2017/05/my-life-and-progression.html

Korean love stories made me draw

New life

New life ,new job

Life is full of surprises ….

Now here is my monthly update… … (March)

Many times we think nothing new is happening ….. And you think life is so boring. But then suddenly everything changes … would you be able to accept those changes?

This is happening with me….

If you have read my blogs earlier  , you might have read that – I was unemployed …. Which means I didn’t have job . But last month I cleared a job interview. And now I am accepted for job…  Yes I am going through my first job jitters. I am very much in confusion about everything….. Well, I am going to join a new place. Become part of new work family. But I am still nervous about it.

I have to face new challenges…… and my biggest challenge is Hindi language. Yes, I can speak it and also write it.  But I am not fluent in it.

The second biggest challenge is accounts…. Yes, I have to work in accounts department  ….. One of my weakest subject or I should say “the subject which hates me ”.

And the third challenge is I am the only female  staff officer … other than sweeper. This means, they (staff members) would not fully understand my problems.

I know things are going to change … and I am going to learn new things. I have to prepare… but I can’t forget how I am. What’s my nature is , I am still that 24 year old pampered  daughter  of my father and mother. I am still that lazy bug of my sister … I am still that crazy idiot girl of my colony. I am still that amateur digital painter. I am me….and how could I change.

Ps: _ I am suddenly feeling so grownup.  I am having some new responsibilities.  But  I am preparing for it.

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