मैं जो तुमसे कहना चाहती हूं भाग 2

कभी कभी ऑफिस में गड़बड़ हो जाती है पर मैं संभाल लेती हुँ। अब तो ऑफिस में भी दोस्त बन गए हैं जो मेरी मदद कर सकते हैं।

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प्रिय दोस्त,
तो कैसे हो तुम । मुझे माफ करना मुझे ऐसे ओपन लेटर नहीं लिखना चाहिए। पर असल में मैं यह लेटर सिर्फ तुम्हें नहीं लिख रही ।तुम्हारे जरिए अपनी भावनाओं को पूरी दुनिया को किसी न किसी तरीके से बताना चाहती हुँ। किसी को भी अपनी निजी जिंदगी के बारे में कभी इस तरह नहीं कहना चाहिए। पर यह तो सिर्फ एक लेख है जिसमें मुझ जैसे व्यक्ति अपनी भावनाओं को कहानियों और लेखों के जरिए जाहिर करते हैं। इसलिए मैं तुम्हें एक ओपन पत्र लिख रही हूँ। ताकि इस लेटर के जरिए मेरी कुछ बातें दुनिया वालों तक पहुँच सके। पिछले दिनों से मैंने बहुत कुछ जाना ।और आज मेरी सोच ऐसी है, की अब मुझे लोगों को देखकर डर नहीं लगता । please click link below👇 for more reading… It is link to original blog post.

https://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/03/2_15.html

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“Surprise Shopping and Sacrasm on Bra size😂”

displaying woman lingerie  is really nonsense to some people… But it’s actually open minded people will understand.

This is a very funny incident and I can’t stop myself writing about it because it’s a thing which mostly happens with women’s . Specialy I am talking about household semi-urban aunties and Indian desi girls.😁😁😁

So it was Sunday and I have planned for supply shopping.

For me supply shopping is monthly sanitary Pads and undergarments…

When you are single woman you don’t know what you will ever find and need..

So, first I thought let not go alone and ask someone to come along…the basic thinking…I called my long lost friend P ….but she didn’t pick up my call. She actually missed the adventure.

Then I message an old buddy -A, who was out of city…so she can’t come along too. I decided to go on my own…

You know to buy women things are really treasure discovery …and it’s like jumping in ocean. Which is called women’s shopping .

I bought monthly supply from supermarket…and then I went to open market just to see if I could buy any cheap price …but treasury items. Yes, we desi girls have this type of ideas a lot and I really discovered something…

I usually buy women lingerie from proper shop…or somewhere where a seller is woman and could suggest about sizes and things.

This is basic habit of every aunties and daughter.. if you ever ask me.

But this time I was experimenting and went to a open market place where they literally hang all lingeries in display….and I saw a cute nice Bra …and there various versions..

Yes women’s have fancy choices regarding undergarments too…

But thing was….tag details was all in Chinese…yes even the price. I was like what …. this cute thing is made in China.😂😂😂😁

Now I asked about the size…and the male seller was like saying- “size pe mat jawo” .

Yes ! This were the exact words.Don’t read the size they are actually made in Chinese… so measurements are different. I actually read 34/75.

The Bra Size I usually buy is 32/80…I was confused and I don’t want to give up…

yes I am that kind of person…if I like something I would definitely go for it whether it fit me or not.

I picked the Bra and said “acha thick h de do”. (It’s OK give it to me.) And in my mind I was laughing like anything… Because you know what… Size really Matters…

I am Saying this because….

These are actually screenshots of articles every women’s should read to understand why actually size matters… because I can’t explain anyfurther…

PS…. I can’t believe I am actually posting it….yes displaying woman lingerie is really nonsense to some people… But it’s actually open minded people will understand.

MY B’Day diary 

Saale kisi ko bhi mera birthday Yaad nhi)  Facebook main alert ka wait kyu karte hai.

One whole day/ night  and some truth.

Ok I don’t know how many of you will going read this…but this post is  actually about my views towards life. I am writing this post at 10:40…pm at eve of my birthday…which means after just few hour l will be 26yr. 

When I write 26…I actually feel awkward as it mean l am 26yr old person but by heart I am just 15…I am still trying to sort out things… well about statement which I made about my heart being 15 is utter lie… I am actually 26yr  and I also think like 26yr…but sometimes I behave like 10 years 😆😆.

Ok let just come to main subject of my post… I was thinking that when we grow up we start knowing people and how one person could be different from other…

Last year, I was feeling little low about how my life is now totally changed and I am left alone. 

This year the ..thing is ; I want to hide…because I don’t want to meet anyone new …I have started hating actual world…..
I see truth of life…and I feel everything thing is vain. 

There are reasons behind such feelings. 

A man gets married because,  he wants cook /maid/wife/ for himself.  Means woman is still secondary element.

A woman gets married because she don’t want to be single for life time and want a  ATM  …who should support her and her family and still want to live her life like free woman. 

A boss is always right…a even though we know sometimes he is wrong . (By his thought) 

People know about your difficulty ;but can’t help you because ,they don’t want to and want to be safe

Money is every thing…it make wrong people,right. 

You can’t help others unless you help yourself. 


Above points are some bitter truth I recently observed…and there are more…. but you know I am lazy in explaining everything  . It just that I  know; I have to live life this way…I can turn things better only when I turn them good for me. 

And what about the other half of my life….like what about my love interest, my family etc…

The things are good means I am not thinking too deeply now a days….because one day everyone has to die

7 AM 

I slept…..it’s morning now. And it’s my birthday! Yes, I am waiting for my birthday wishes. My colleagues  have no idea about my birthday…wondering whether I should treat them or not. 

It depends whether they know about it or not..

In fact  my own father had not wished me…but he loves me and that’s why he is living with me.

Which reminds me something which my boss said-“ when you go home(room)? Do You cook  your own meal??” it was a question. Because he knows I don’t know how to cook properly. 

Then it suddenly strike in my head “why is it expected that woman should  always be  good @cooking or should know how to cook”.

I could have said something witty, but as usual   I smile and said “my father helps me to cook ”.

Why don’t these men (Men who don’t believe in equity ) understand that the  world is changing. Household responsibilities are not only for women but also for men.

12 PM 

Guess what? Not a good day so far.

I got wishes from my mom and one of sister friend whom I consider as sister. But no wishes from my friends…although they are liking my profile pic in Facebook. 😆😆iss ke alwa bhi kuch karate nhi. 

1:30 pm 

Dozing like anything…

I want to leave.. but😜 I can’t leave my work  .

10:PM 

I am finally at home with My family. I back to myself….

So, it’s ending of the day… almost end of birthday and still waiting for more(or less expected once ) wishes   … may be tomorrow some confused people will wish me…I realize even if I try too much; it’s  hard to create my place in their heart.  I don’t worth it.   So for those who still think about me and care for me. I am  there in hearts. 😏😶. I love them…they know.

P.S.1 I hate my so called crush, boyfriend, and friends (Saale kisi ko bhi mera birthday Yaad nhi)  Facebook main alert ka wait kyu karte hai.😛😛😛

P.S. 2 I am actually feeling bad and I wish I could say something mean to them.  

Being girl

Being girl is never a weakness they should know.

I was walking through the path,
When they saw me,
a girl and weak ,they thought !
They pass some comment ,
I didn’t gave much attention though;

But will this happen everyday,
i don’t think so.
I am not weak ….
Being girl is never a weakness they should know.