तेरी आंखों की चमक, तेरी होठों की मुस्कान सब खो चुकी है।

तेरी आंखों की चमक, तेरी होठों की मुस्कान सब खो चुकी है।
तेरे बोलने का अंदाज ,तेरी हंसी की मिठास अब लुट चुकी है।
तू बिखर गया है ,तू अकेला सा हो गया है
तू बिखर गया है ,तू अकेला सा हो गया है
ना तू सुनता है, ना तो सुनाना चाहता है।।
तू अकेले में रोता है ,तू दीवारों को ताक ता हैं।
तू दिन भर यही सोचता है -“मैं ही क्यों ?”
तू दिन भर यही सोचता है- “आखिर में ,मैं ही क्यों ?

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में जो तुमसे कहना चाहती हूँ

प्रिय दोस्त,
कैसे हो तुम? क्या हालचाल? मुझे लगता हैं तुम जैसे भी हो …पर कुछ न कुछ मेरे जैसे ही हो।
मुझे तुमसे बहुत सारी बातें करनी है । तुमसे ये पूछना है कि तुम आज कल कैसे रहते हो। कभी कभी मुझे तुम्हारादर्द समझ आता है और कभी कभी तुम्हारी याद भी आती हैं।
जब हम आख़िरी बार मिले तोह बहुत सी बातें हुई थी और बहुत सी अधूरी रह गई। तुमने मुझे अपने बीते सालों के बारे मैं बताया औऱ मैंने भी थोड़ा बहुत कुछ तुम्हें अपने बारे में बताया था। पर बीते कुछ दिनों मेरे साथ ऐसा बहुत कुछ हुआ कि मुझे फिर से तुम्हें अपनी कहानी अच्छे से ,,,,,मतलब शुरुआत से शुरू करनी होगी। जिसमें से आधा तो तुम जानते हो और आधा कुछ ऐसा है कि मुझे अब उन बातों मतलब समझ आया हैं।
तो ये सच हैं कि तुम मेरा पहेला प्यार हो
औऱ तुम्हारे ही कारण मेरी जिंदगी में बहुत सी चीजें हुईं जो अगर न होती तो जिंदगी में इस मुकाम पे न होती। please click link to read more…https://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/03/part-1.html

My Dirty 🙊 imagination list./ My Problem list. 

.I am not ashamed of my feelings….but I am always confused. 

I am  a deep thinker….my thoughts have no limits…sometimes it’s goes into such a pit that it’s difficult for me to come out. 

There  are reasons behind these kinds of thoughts…it’s actually because I can’t stop thinking about others.  My thoughts get influenced by the judgemental feeling of those around me.

I don’t want to judge others but when l see the consequences…. I start making predictions which almost/ nearly gets true. It’s one of my power. 

For example: –

  •  1)I made predictions about separation of two  persons (hint)🤔 . They are not happy together.  My judgement was made on basis of their behaviour…and I am feeling guilty as if ;it was I who separated them. 
  • 2) It is about my own sister….you know once she told me. I have no right  to write about her personal life.  And I think it’s right . I should not write ..but the only thing is I care about her….and I can’t see her being dumped once again. 

My own personal life is also a mess.  I have done so many mistakes…”it’s true! I have no right to judge.” But they are just my views…I am not ashamed of my feelings….but I am always confused. That is the reasons I have question Mark ?  expression in my face every time. 

I know ; I have less number of readers…but it would be interesting if any of them could just  share there experiences with me regarding the following questions: –

  1. Have you ever  fall in one-sided love? 💘
  2. If you  never had desire  to be kissed? 💏
  3. Always fall for wrong person.
  4. Have  you been dumped more than twice? 🖓
  5. Feelings cheated by life.👎👎 
  6. Want to kill someone  very badly. 🗡🗡
  7. Your boss never gives you holiday. 📉📆🗒
  8. Your crush loves someone else. 😝🙏
  9. Don’t want to get married. 💝💝
  10. Want to get power to control your life. 
  11. Want to have money without hard work  

Hope some of you comment/inbox/ email  me at- anelife16@gmail.com  

Or Mycovertlife.wordpress 

To help me out. 

PS :- Wishing happy Diwali in advance. 💣💣

 

After one year of job 

Hi! Everyone, I know I am not a good blogger and whatever I post is mostly related to my life and problems I am facing. Many of you might not understand what problems I am talking about and to understand that You have to read both of my blogs deeply… anyways. I don’t want you all to do so..

Today I am going to post something about how I feel in my office…..you  know I have completed my one year of training so I think I should describe  about it…

please click below 

https://anelife16.blogspot.in/2017/06/after-one-year-of-job.html

The truth of my life 

If you found me silent …just know that I have storm inside.

Last year I got job.  I knew my family  (parents);  were more happy than me.

I left all my hobbies for them. Infact I have to live separately from them.

In few days ,I got use to it. But they don’t know that how unhappy I am. 

I can’t sleep properly ,neither I eat properly.  It  already affected my health. 

But mostly ;It effected my mental health.  They don’t know how depressed I am; when I found myself all alone.  

Sometimes, My days are not good…work pressure and living among strangers makes me cry.  I wish someone just know ,how it’s killing me.  I am sacrificing myself for happiness of my family.  

P.s. If you found me silent …just know that I have storm inside.