Deep thoughts 2

I am 26 years .. This year I will be 27. This reminds me I have reached a marriageable age.
Ha ha …but I want to laugh at the fact. Because I am still not ready. Nearly all my friends and mates who have studied with me are getting married or thinking about marriage. And here I am sitting in my office desk thinking about-“ how to tell my parents that I am an adult now and could take my own care.”
Yes …..It’s really funny na ! My parents still think I am an adolescence.
I have so many things about which I want to tell my parents , but I feel embarrassed ….because I already know my parents would never understand me.They won’t accept me .
It’s all about how much screwed up I am. And how much I have hidden about myself.
Basically I am always honest to them… but I can’t tell them about my relationship status. Because they won’t understand.
I deal with people….and I know a lot. I am still taking experience . But there is a thing which eating me up.
I don’t follow any conservative life. But still as I move around and meet new people I have to keep a poker face on.
I have been depressed and been in bad emotional trauma. When ever I have been attached to and started loving someone ; they already preparing to leave me. This time I have nothing to lose also …because I have given it all.
And you know what? I have become so habitual….that I myself say Goodbye to them.
Yes I am going through it….last finale. Yes I am waiting that #person would finally say goodbye to me… I secretly wanted to marry him …but the complications in life….Which reality has created . I don’t think there’s any hope.
I am not going to fall for anyone now….because I am already in pit.
And when I see other couples happily living married life… I just want to say one thing ….not everyone is so fortunate.
PS . It’s hurting me lot …to letting him Go. Because I can’t let anyone suffer with me .

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Deep Thoughts -1

Basically I am tired of feeling frustrate… sometimes I do think why I am born.
I don’t even want to explain how I am living. These three months of my life was like sea saw… sometimes I feel like I am the lucky one and sometimes it like I am living the most awful life ever.
My greatest fear is living away from those whom I loved. That’s why I don’t easily get involve with anyone…. May be it’s my destiny to live alone . Because everyone ,whom I have ever loved ; gave me some big excuse for leaving me….. I am honest and loyal. I  have crossed every limit to reach them, fight for them…do whatever I could.
But I can’t expect anything back. Getting reciprocate love…..Is not just what I get. I am bad. Bad in decision regarding Love. I have been in love many times… I don’t know why? I always fall for the trap…
I am not timepass or any object….that is used and thrown. I am someone who is looking for a love that is continuous …forever and everlasting.
But ,whenever I fall for someone . I never even get the same…every time . …Sometimes the person can’t Love you ,because he love someone else.
Sometimes ,person loves you. But don’t understand you . Your feelings are nil for them and you are never their first priority.
Sometimes the person loves you …he will do everything a life partner does for you, but you can’t expect lifelong commitment . Because it’s the society who will decide….. (Your marriage.)
I have lost a lot in these three months…or I say in these three years.    But I have gained too ….that is. How  to move on ….because your happiness never depends on Someone.

Start loving yourself….(I am saying this because I can’t ). I am hungry… I slept empty stomach ….in frustration.

But more than hunger of food I am feeling hunger of affection that I truly deserve. I am hungry for love and care. Someone who just say I will be there, I am for you only you……
But than I look back …I look at all those men I have loved and still loving….do you believe I would be loyal now. Would I be able to give someone the love that he deserves. No! No ! I have already given every bit of it  to these men … And I am all broken in pieces… I would now never be committed /loyal to the person who would truly love me.
And yes if he ever ask me whom do you love most … I would first look back to all of you and then I would look at myself and I would say m…… I still don’tknow.88dd70d1894b0e9a50c1f231a41507a1

Your own fantasy

https://lolitslife.mycovertlife.com/2018/05/your-own-fantasty.html

Please click above link to read more.

One of the problem which we (woman) suffer is the sudden change in hormone level of our body which creates all kind of cravings in us. India is country where it’s a taboo when woman who is single talks about her physical and emotional need.

It’s not that I have never been in a relationship…. But yes I have virginity tag with me. This means I have never ever tried to have any sexual relationship. It doesn’t mean I don’t have any kind of desire, but it’s actually that my standards are extreme. I have a very good self control on my desire. But there are times when you feel emotionally exhausted.

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Watch “Edited video ….Khali khali Dil Ko by Arman Malik” on YouTube

For those readers who have not seen this music video i.e small piece of my work can click the link below 👇

https://youtu.be/PK0nlYALUfM

He said “I won’t marry you”.(short story of breakup)

Do you believe in destiny …..so here is a short story ….illu

please click the linkhttp://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/04/he-said-i-wont-marry-youshort-story-of.html

i would like to write more on it….if you like this portion  please  comment.

 

Things you should understand if you deal with these 4 situations of life.

Hello readers,

I know many of you may be reading my blog post ……for first time so for …them a little brief info. About my blog I am Anne. I am sole admin of this blog…and yes! this blog is basically about how to deal with life situations…

So, what kind of situations I am actually dealing in my life can be pointed like this:-

  1. If you have recently gone through a breakup which was not actually a break up…(confused)
  2. You made new friends …because you are turning from an introvert to an extrovert.
  3. You are woman who is open minded…but wait! World actually don’t know that.
  4. And because you are newly single and exploring the world…everyone doesn’t trust you.

I am going to explain these situations in detail please click girlo5 

तेरी आंखों की चमक, तेरी होठों की मुस्कान सब खो चुकी है।

तेरी आंखों की चमक, तेरी होठों की मुस्कान सब खो चुकी है।
तेरे बोलने का अंदाज ,तेरी हंसी की मिठास अब लुट चुकी है।
तू बिखर गया है ,तू अकेला सा हो गया है
तू बिखर गया है ,तू अकेला सा हो गया है
ना तू सुनता है, ना तो सुनाना चाहता है।।
तू अकेले में रोता है ,तू दीवारों को ताक ता हैं।
तू दिन भर यही सोचता है -“मैं ही क्यों ?”
तू दिन भर यही सोचता है- “आखिर में ,मैं ही क्यों ?

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मैं जो तुमसे कहना चाहती हूं भाग 2

कभी कभी ऑफिस में गड़बड़ हो जाती है पर मैं संभाल लेती हुँ। अब तो ऑफिस में भी दोस्त बन गए हैं जो मेरी मदद कर सकते हैं।

 

प्रिय दोस्त,
तो कैसे हो तुम । मुझे माफ करना मुझे ऐसे ओपन लेटर नहीं लिखना चाहिए। पर असल में मैं यह लेटर सिर्फ तुम्हें नहीं लिख रही ।तुम्हारे जरिए अपनी भावनाओं को पूरी दुनिया को किसी न किसी तरीके से बताना चाहती हुँ। किसी को भी अपनी निजी जिंदगी के बारे में कभी इस तरह नहीं कहना चाहिए। पर यह तो सिर्फ एक लेख है जिसमें मुझ जैसे व्यक्ति अपनी भावनाओं को कहानियों और लेखों के जरिए जाहिर करते हैं। इसलिए मैं तुम्हें एक ओपन पत्र लिख रही हूँ। ताकि इस लेटर के जरिए मेरी कुछ बातें दुनिया वालों तक पहुँच सके। पिछले दिनों से मैंने बहुत कुछ जाना ।और आज मेरी सोच ऐसी है, की अब मुझे लोगों को देखकर डर नहीं लगता । please click link below👇 for more reading… It is link to original blog post.

https://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/03/2_15.html

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में जो तुमसे कहना चाहती हूँ

प्रिय दोस्त,
कैसे हो तुम? क्या हालचाल? मुझे लगता हैं तुम जैसे भी हो …पर कुछ न कुछ मेरे जैसे ही हो।
मुझे तुमसे बहुत सारी बातें करनी है । तुमसे ये पूछना है कि तुम आज कल कैसे रहते हो। कभी कभी मुझे तुम्हारादर्द समझ आता है और कभी कभी तुम्हारी याद भी आती हैं।
जब हम आख़िरी बार मिले तोह बहुत सी बातें हुई थी और बहुत सी अधूरी रह गई। तुमने मुझे अपने बीते सालों के बारे मैं बताया औऱ मैंने भी थोड़ा बहुत कुछ तुम्हें अपने बारे में बताया था। पर बीते कुछ दिनों मेरे साथ ऐसा बहुत कुछ हुआ कि मुझे फिर से तुम्हें अपनी कहानी अच्छे से ,,,,,मतलब शुरुआत से शुरू करनी होगी। जिसमें से आधा तो तुम जानते हो और आधा कुछ ऐसा है कि मुझे अब उन बातों मतलब समझ आया हैं।
तो ये सच हैं कि तुम मेरा पहेला प्यार हो
औऱ तुम्हारे ही कारण मेरी जिंदगी में बहुत सी चीजें हुईं जो अगर न होती तो जिंदगी में इस मुकाम पे न होती। please click link to read more…https://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/03/part-1.html

“Surprise Shopping and Sacrasm on Bra size😂”

displaying woman lingerie  is really nonsense to some people… But it’s actually open minded people will understand.

This is a very funny incident and I can’t stop myself writing about it because it’s a thing which mostly happens with women’s . Specialy I am talking about household semi-urban aunties and Indian desi girls.😁😁😁

So it was Sunday and I have planned for supply shopping.

For me supply shopping is monthly sanitary Pads and undergarments…

When you are single woman you don’t know what you will ever find and need..

So, first I thought let not go alone and ask someone to come along…the basic thinking…I called my long lost friend P ….but she didn’t pick up my call. She actually missed the adventure.

Then I message an old buddy -A, who was out of city…so she can’t come along too. I decided to go on my own…

You know to buy women things are really treasure discovery …and it’s like jumping in ocean. Which is called women’s shopping .

I bought monthly supply from supermarket…and then I went to open market just to see if I could buy any cheap price …but treasury items. Yes, we desi girls have this type of ideas a lot and I really discovered something…

I usually buy women lingerie from proper shop…or somewhere where a seller is woman and could suggest about sizes and things.

This is basic habit of every aunties and daughter.. if you ever ask me.

But this time I was experimenting and went to a open market place where they literally hang all lingeries in display….and I saw a cute nice Bra …and there various versions..

Yes women’s have fancy choices regarding undergarments too…

But thing was….tag details was all in Chinese…yes even the price. I was like what …. this cute thing is made in China.😂😂😂😁

Now I asked about the size…and the male seller was like saying- “size pe mat jawo” .

Yes ! This were the exact words.Don’t read the size they are actually made in Chinese… so measurements are different. I actually read 34/75.

The Bra Size I usually buy is 32/80…I was confused and I don’t want to give up…

yes I am that kind of person…if I like something I would definitely go for it whether it fit me or not.

I picked the Bra and said “acha thick h de do”. (It’s OK give it to me.) And in my mind I was laughing like anything… Because you know what… Size really Matters…

I am Saying this because….

These are actually screenshots of articles every women’s should read to understand why actually size matters… because I can’t explain anyfurther…

PS…. I can’t believe I am actually posting it….yes displaying woman lingerie is really nonsense to some people… But it’s actually open minded people will understand.