Deep Thoughts -1

Basically I am tired of feeling frustrate… sometimes I do think why I am born.
I don’t even want to explain how I am living. These three months of my life was like sea saw… sometimes I feel like I am the lucky one and sometimes it like I am living the most awful life ever.
My greatest fear is living away from those whom I loved. That’s why I don’t easily get involve with anyone…. May be it’s my destiny to live alone . Because everyone ,whom I have ever loved ; gave me some big excuse for leaving me….. I am honest and loyal. I  have crossed every limit to reach them, fight for them…do whatever I could.
But I can’t expect anything back. Getting reciprocate love…..Is not just what I get. I am bad. Bad in decision regarding Love. I have been in love many times… I don’t know why? I always fall for the trap…
I am not timepass or any object….that is used and thrown. I am someone who is looking for a love that is continuous …forever and everlasting.
But ,whenever I fall for someone . I never even get the same…every time . …Sometimes the person can’t Love you ,because he love someone else.
Sometimes ,person loves you. But don’t understand you . Your feelings are nil for them and you are never their first priority.
Sometimes the person loves you …he will do everything a life partner does for you, but you can’t expect lifelong commitment . Because it’s the society who will decide….. (Your marriage.)
I have lost a lot in these three months…or I say in these three years.    But I have gained too ….that is. How  to move on ….because your happiness never depends on Someone.

Start loving yourself….(I am saying this because I can’t ). I am hungry… I slept empty stomach ….in frustration.

But more than hunger of food I am feeling hunger of affection that I truly deserve. I am hungry for love and care. Someone who just say I will be there, I am for you only you……
But than I look back …I look at all those men I have loved and still loving….do you believe I would be loyal now. Would I be able to give someone the love that he deserves. No! No ! I have already given every bit of it  to these men … And I am all broken in pieces… I would now never be committed /loyal to the person who would truly love me.
And yes if he ever ask me whom do you love most … I would first look back to all of you and then I would look at myself and I would say m…… I still don’tknow.88dd70d1894b0e9a50c1f231a41507a1

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Falling in dark pit

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Hello dear readers!

You are going to read one of my dark secret.  I have fallen in a very dark pit and I don’t even know how I would come out of this darkness. In my last blog post I have wrote my fantasy about a person.

And what if you have absorbed his darkness into you ….. for me it’s like  I have bought a dress ,which is  out of my budget  and I am in  big debt .

I don’t even know which way I would go….feeling miserable. Even though; I already have known the truth.  Whenever I get the reality check my heart sunk like  the titanic.

It’s like whenever I am with him ….he is my world. Living separate and alone would seriously make me insane….i am wandering in dark forest and piercing my heart once again. I won’t come out this time and won’t be able stand….

I am just done with myself now…. I know have crossed some limits now….

PS.I am living my life without thinking …..i know now…..who I can be.

He said “I won’t marry you”.(short story of breakup)

Do you believe in destiny …..so here is a short story ….illu

please click the linkhttp://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/04/he-said-i-wont-marry-youshort-story-of.html

i would like to write more on it….if you like this portion  please  comment.

 

Things you should understand if you deal with these 4 situations of life.

Hello readers,

I know many of you may be reading my blog post ……for first time so for …them a little brief info. About my blog I am Anne. I am sole admin of this blog…and yes! this blog is basically about how to deal with life situations…

So, what kind of situations I am actually dealing in my life can be pointed like this:-

  1. If you have recently gone through a breakup which was not actually a break up…(confused)
  2. You made new friends …because you are turning from an introvert to an extrovert.
  3. You are woman who is open minded…but wait! World actually don’t know that.
  4. And because you are newly single and exploring the world…everyone doesn’t trust you.

I am going to explain these situations in detail please click girlo5 

तेरी आंखों की चमक, तेरी होठों की मुस्कान सब खो चुकी है।

तेरी आंखों की चमक, तेरी होठों की मुस्कान सब खो चुकी है।
तेरे बोलने का अंदाज ,तेरी हंसी की मिठास अब लुट चुकी है।
तू बिखर गया है ,तू अकेला सा हो गया है
तू बिखर गया है ,तू अकेला सा हो गया है
ना तू सुनता है, ना तो सुनाना चाहता है।।
तू अकेले में रोता है ,तू दीवारों को ताक ता हैं।
तू दिन भर यही सोचता है -“मैं ही क्यों ?”
तू दिन भर यही सोचता है- “आखिर में ,मैं ही क्यों ?

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मैं जो तुमसे कहना चाहती हूं भाग 2

कभी कभी ऑफिस में गड़बड़ हो जाती है पर मैं संभाल लेती हुँ। अब तो ऑफिस में भी दोस्त बन गए हैं जो मेरी मदद कर सकते हैं।

 

प्रिय दोस्त,
तो कैसे हो तुम । मुझे माफ करना मुझे ऐसे ओपन लेटर नहीं लिखना चाहिए। पर असल में मैं यह लेटर सिर्फ तुम्हें नहीं लिख रही ।तुम्हारे जरिए अपनी भावनाओं को पूरी दुनिया को किसी न किसी तरीके से बताना चाहती हुँ। किसी को भी अपनी निजी जिंदगी के बारे में कभी इस तरह नहीं कहना चाहिए। पर यह तो सिर्फ एक लेख है जिसमें मुझ जैसे व्यक्ति अपनी भावनाओं को कहानियों और लेखों के जरिए जाहिर करते हैं। इसलिए मैं तुम्हें एक ओपन पत्र लिख रही हूँ। ताकि इस लेटर के जरिए मेरी कुछ बातें दुनिया वालों तक पहुँच सके। पिछले दिनों से मैंने बहुत कुछ जाना ।और आज मेरी सोच ऐसी है, की अब मुझे लोगों को देखकर डर नहीं लगता । please click link below👇 for more reading… It is link to original blog post.

https://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/03/2_15.html

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में जो तुमसे कहना चाहती हूँ

प्रिय दोस्त,
कैसे हो तुम? क्या हालचाल? मुझे लगता हैं तुम जैसे भी हो …पर कुछ न कुछ मेरे जैसे ही हो।
मुझे तुमसे बहुत सारी बातें करनी है । तुमसे ये पूछना है कि तुम आज कल कैसे रहते हो। कभी कभी मुझे तुम्हारादर्द समझ आता है और कभी कभी तुम्हारी याद भी आती हैं।
जब हम आख़िरी बार मिले तोह बहुत सी बातें हुई थी और बहुत सी अधूरी रह गई। तुमने मुझे अपने बीते सालों के बारे मैं बताया औऱ मैंने भी थोड़ा बहुत कुछ तुम्हें अपने बारे में बताया था। पर बीते कुछ दिनों मेरे साथ ऐसा बहुत कुछ हुआ कि मुझे फिर से तुम्हें अपनी कहानी अच्छे से ,,,,,मतलब शुरुआत से शुरू करनी होगी। जिसमें से आधा तो तुम जानते हो और आधा कुछ ऐसा है कि मुझे अब उन बातों मतलब समझ आया हैं।
तो ये सच हैं कि तुम मेरा पहेला प्यार हो
औऱ तुम्हारे ही कारण मेरी जिंदगी में बहुत सी चीजें हुईं जो अगर न होती तो जिंदगी में इस मुकाम पे न होती। please click link to read more…https://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/03/part-1.html

Day 3 What happens when you show WEAKNESS to others”

I can’t really afford Crying like baby girl

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It’s March now . A few days ago I started my new video blog. It was just little experiment. Sometimes we do new things to learn how much we can get with it. I did the same so here is another link to it 👇.

The above video is about one of the vulnerable moment of your life when you are weak and you can’t hide it.

It’s all about Crying and complaining about your problems infront of others. Basically many of us do that when we are unhappy with our lives.

When we do that, we actually give other people chance to hurt us by showing are weak points.

If you ever want to be strong and not want to betrayed again and again just understand one rule . # Never show how much weak /hurt you are.

Always try to overcome your fear. Gradually you will be better .

If don’t understand what I mean just see my video. ☺😂

I can say it was funny because I was crying for some things… and when I realise that it’s silly to cry on. I started laughing at myself.

You know life is not so easy… We are humans and we should be happy for this life God has given to us.

PS :- This video is edited . I can’t really afford Crying like baby girl infront of camera. 😂😂😂🙏 .

(Social media Experiment) Watch “Day 2/ final video blog” on YouTube

I did got some good experience🗣

So ,it was really fun posting your own video for two days continuously…

I tried to grab attention… actually😂😂😂

25% successful although…75%failure.

I enjoyed myself….as if hosting a TV shows without any proper presentation….

At first I thought maybe I could continue doing this if I had got proper results….

But then… I decided to give a pause to the project but the things I learned are:-

  1. It’s going to be time consuming.
  2. I have to present myself properly.
  3. I laughed very much during the whole project.
  4. I can’t Do it smoothly.
  5. I have other pending works….(I am talking about office work)so no extra time.
  6. Although my friend supported me … He didn’t knew that he was part of an experiment.
  7. I did lose my mind for two days.Because I wasn’t feeling better about myself.
  8. I got confidence like anything…
  9. I talk to people with less hesitation now … (Introverts problems)
  10. Sorry I will Do my best later.

So thanks to everyone who participated in My Social media Experiment…

click link👉https://www.instagram.com/p/BfhW6u0Bav0OXGH0NBZMdMzmro7qnxBFaa0Gus0/

Recovering from breakup and anxiety.

Yes , i am woman who is passionate about love … but who still want take things slowly…
yes , i am woman who have desire both physical and emotional . i am screwed and i act bad ass sometimes.
But I am bold, I am strong and I know I would survive without love.

Dear readers,

Do you felt like your life is getting into too much mess? You want to cry loudly…. Shout out for help … but you don’t want to feel embarrass. Currently I am going through a lot of mental break down. I have started talking to myself too much… (May be this some kind of depression)… sometimes I laugh at myself for silly reasons …i just feeling embarrass when I am typing this. I know people have bad habit of judging you.gir sad

please click link  below.

https://liferebooting.blogspot.in/2018/02/recovering-from-breakup-and-anxiety.html