Love should be real 

It shows your commitment…and that’s why I don’t trust you. 

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A lot of times I wonder…will it matters to you.  Or how important I am in your life….I have accepted that it’s doesn’t matter how  much time we spend together. We are simply trying something to find in each other. 

Last time we spend  a little time together…you know it could be more of us together…if you haven’t went to play cricket…because I asked you in advance about your schedule. 
It shows your commitment…and that’s why I don’t trust you. please click here to read more 

MEN’S AROUND ME

Recently I was very much busy……in fact I am still busy .but as I was craving of  with something; I thought …I should write it … its actually one of my PMS symptoms you know..

Ok ….. It’s about men’s   all around me…

As you know last month was my birthday…most people around me didn’t even remember because they all depend on Face -book birthday alert…which I still hate…. I don’t know!  “How do people use to remember birthdays before FB came in existences.?”

I was disappointed by my friends…Specially some closed once  ,because I expected something from them. Even my boyfriend had no idea that it was my birthday. So ,I have to  punish him….  I didn’t talk to him for two weeks and basically ignored him.

I know, he didn’t got any hint …what’s  into me…or what is going on…so I just said “its September month!” …and then it strike him -what the reasons!   He said “I am sorry, I complete forgot”. I said “Ok, and ask him some time for me  . “

So, in last week what I did was visited him in  his place ….I talked with him for hours and I was satisfied…..as it was the thing I always  wanted to do … the best part was-  I saw his room …. I shared blanket with him…I clicked his unwashed face and captured some funny moments.

I don’t know whether he understands my feelings for him or not … but I actually love him for that very moment…although for short time…but I could have kissed him… I was enjoying that feeling of shyness.

After few hours I have to leave  … but I asked him next time I want a proper date…

So ,this is  how  finally I satisfied my birthday wish.

Next day was normal…everything went well…

There were some new fresher in my work place…all of them are men…It is nothing new for me…because I am only woman in office , I have got used to it…the  only problem is that they have not got used  to me…. I hate constant staring …. Like; I am monkey in a zoo. Yes, for them it might be difficult to accept that I am only woman officer other than maid/peon who dozes off in her chair.

I know after a year they will get use to me…if they want to  stay here longer.

So, everything went normal for two weeks… until first week of October …all stress and little bit miss understandings…

About…one thing was…I was missing someone very constantly  …I use to visit his profile very often…see all his likes/ unlike s…even traced out his recent dating stories…..(yes I am talking about my crush/friend)   things between us are sorted out … I just wanted to know -‘how he is doing…maybe he had find some person…yap still tab in’ .

The only thing which…matters for me…is I am happy…satisfied…and tired at same time…

PS :- I don’t know how I should talk with men’s around me … or how I should change their views…I am doing ,what can do…and that’s all.

प्यार कुछ मेरी नजर से 

जिन्हें गलती करने पर  घर पर छपल  और लाते मिली होगी

  •  मैं  ये  लेख हिंदी  भाषा  में  इसलिए लिख रही हूँ ताकि  मेरी बात सबको समझ आए ।

आज कुछ हुआ जो मुझे प्यार की सही परिभाषा को याद दिलाया।/
तो मैंने सोचा कि क्यों नहीं इस बकवास को  सभी के साथ साझा करू।

मेरे विचार में प्यार में कोई बुराई नहीं ।पर किसी के प्यार  में पड़ना  एक बवकूफी हैं । काफी लोग ये गलती करते हैं । 

 मैंने भी यह गलती की ।।।😁😁

पर समझदार वो  है; जो अपनी  और दुसरो की गलती से  सबक  ले। ‘जवानी ‘ ,एक ऐसा समय है ;जब प्यार जैसी गलती मामूली सी बात है । पर जवानी ,ही ऐसा समय जब  एक गलती जिंदगी भर का सबक बन जाती हैं । 

मैंने  एक समय देखा; जब मैं,  एकतरफा प्यार में पड़कर बिखर चुकी थी । उस समय मैंने बहुत गलत फैसले  लिए । पर  इसे पहले मैं अपने भविष्य का सर्वनाश करती, मेरे बड़ों के आशीर्वाद के कारण मैं सम्भल  गई

अब बड़ों का आशीर्वाद का मतलब मैं क्या बताऊ?  वो काफी समझदार लोग समझ ही गए होंगे- जिन्हें गलती करने पर  घर पर छपल  और लाते मिली होगी ।😂😂😂

जी हाँ मुझे भी मेरी माँ ने ऐसे लतड़ा 

आज भी जब मैं प्यार जैसे शब्द के बारे में  सोचती हूँ, मुझे माँ का प्यार ही पहले याद आता है । फिर सच्चाई तो यह है की प्यार सही समय पर सही  इंसान के साथ बहुत किश्मत वालों को ही होता है ।

प्यार तो  आजकल मिनटों में किसी से भी हो जाता है ।पर यह प्यार ,इतनी मुश्किलों को अपने साथ लेकर आता है; कि कोई इसे करने से पहले दस बार सोच ले।

किसी व्यक्ति से हमें प्यार विभिन्न प्रकार से हो सकता हैं । :-

  1. एकतरफा  प्यार ।
  2.  छुपारूतम प्यार।
  3. डरपोक वाला प्यार  ।
  4. खुलेआम वाला प्यार ।
  5. टाइम पास वाला  प्यार ।
  6. सच्चा वाला  प्यार ।
  • एकतरफा  प्यार । आज भी कितने लोग  इस  मोह में फंसे हुए है । कुछ तो समझ  जाते हैं  और  कुछ तो समझते ही नहीं । दिल के बार बार टुकड़े होते हैं  पर फिर  भी ये लगे रहते हैं ।
  • छुपारूतम प्यार। इसमें  दोनों ही ओर  आकर्षण होता है ।सब समझ भी होती हैं ,लेकिन सब कुछ छुपा कर करना पड़ता हैं । जमाने की नजरों से बचना होता है ।  हालात के साथ ;ये कभी भी बदल सकता हैं ।
  • डरपोक वाला । ये वाला प्यार तो छुपारूतम प्यार के जैसे ही होता है ।बस फर्क इतना है कि ये कभी  आगे नहीं  बढ़ सकता है । डर के कारण ये प्यार खामोश हो जाता है ।
  • खुलेआम वाला। ये वाला प्यार तो छुपारूतम प्यार के बिलकुल  उलट है । जहाँ  छुपारूतम  प्यार में  सब छुपा करते है । इस मे सब खुलेआम होता है । हर social media sites  में अपने प्यार को दिखाया जाता है । रिश्तेदारों की मंजूरी की भी जरूरत नहीं होती ।
  • टाइम पास वाला। ये वाला प्यार  बड़ा ही निकम्मा प्यार होता है । जिस व्यक्ति के पास करने के लिए कुछ नहीं होता वही निकम्मा व्यक्ति  दुसरो के दिल के साथ  खेल खेलता है ।
  • सच्चा वाला।ये वाला प्यार तो बहुत किश्मत वालों को ही होता है । कुछ ही सफल व्यक्ति है; जो  इस प्यार के सभी पड़ाव को सफलता से पार कर पाए हैं । इसमें दोनों ही व्यक्तियों को  आपना सब कुछ खोना पड़ता । जिसने ये कर  लिया  ,उसे प्यार में PhD के साथ; स्वर्ग भी  नसीब होता है ।😂😂👏👏❤


P.S. ये सच की प्यार को समझना मुश्किल है । मैं तो बस  अपने  दिमाग के फितुर  को  खतम कर रही हूँ । अगर आप लोगों को कोई दिक्कत हो तो मैं कुछ क्यों करूँ । आप को कौन सा वाला प्यार हुआ; अपने सुझाव दे सकते हैं ।


Without a kiss 

When you are in a relationship ,a kiss is something by which you show your affection for that special person to whom you love . Obviously first you should be sure of that relationship.

When you are in a relationship ,a kiss is something by which you show your affection for that special person to whom you love . Obviously first you should be sure of that relationship.
I am in relationship with  a promise. Which  I  made.
Its my fault…I  could not blame anybody. I am seeing a person from last 5 years and I don’t know why there is no progress. Sometimes as woman I want more from this relationship but as I am still not sure about it. I can’t go any further…. 

   Please click on the link to read in detail. 

https://anelife16.blogspot.in/2017/07/without-kiss.html

CURRENT STATUS “Thoughts about marriage.”

It’s said “never run back to what broke you.”
But also “never forget what made you strong.” And I know in my heart…what it was….

After being defeated by love….I simply believe marriage is separate from love.

Please click on the link below to read more….👇👇👇💁

https://anelife16.blogspot.in/2017/06/current-status-confused-about-marriage.html

Drama v/s Reality 

https://anelife16.blogspot.in/2017/03/drama-vs-reality.html?m=1
तु चाहता किसी को और तूझे चाहता कोई और है ।

Imagine you are Heroine in your own life drama 😂😃😃Drama👈please click this  link to go original site and read full article 😁 

 

https://anelife16.blogspot.in/2017/03/drama-vs-reality.html?m=1

Things have changed …life review.

Hello reader, it took me long time to write something ethical….

Well! I am very much busy these days because it’s financial year ending. Many of you might be thinking what connection I am having with finance, so let me remind you that I am still working as trainee accountant….. And yes! I am still stuck…..although I don’t hate my job now….because now I have got use to it.

These days i am living alone…. and I don’t have a single human being around me  during times when I need them…. I am actually talking about my family and friends.

I don’t know what feelings are as I have turned into a robot who knows only about her works…

But I am enjoying this alone solitude time…..because no one cares whether I am sleeping or awake…..whether dying or living …I can do anything ….even dance naked !(just kidding…..but its truth )

I am living on my own….still lazy…..in cooking. (The reason I still want my mother to be with me is food because… I can’t cook well.)

These days music is my best friend…..it still helping me to survive.

I listen and download a new tracks everyday…. and I have become huge fan of Asian dramas which include Japan, Taiwanese, Thai, Korean Indian mix videos are my favorite…. Korean/Thai actors are really very cute and handsome….

I have prepared a list of series to see every day during my spare time…

  1. Full house Korean/Thai
  2. Playful kiss/ kiss me
  3. My little lover
  4. The girl and three sweethearts.

And there are more to watch….

Now about my personal love trouble….

I can’t love someone more than myself…I have learn this about myself…..

Going through one sided relationship doesn’t give much more than pain.

Although this time it was not hard because I was not serious from very beginning … I have already told vikas….my first preference is my career and my family which exactly same from his side for his family and himself.

I didn’t have much chance to know him…and yes! I am not ashamed to take his name….no code V this time.

It was not a serious  kind…of l0ve relationship…..just a trial date….which took….five years to understand that we couldn’t go together.

I know he will be annoyed ….but now who cares…. I am already a spoil brat.

I know describing your personal relationship in public is highly immature and a big stupidity…. but you know what ….my heart is really itching ….and I can’t control.

He compared himself with someone who was….

I can’t disclose…much ….it my fault and I am taking blame on my self….

I believe him as good friend…. and may be after reading all these things he may not consider me as one.

I do not hate him ….it’s that things have not gone far between us and I am thankful….

My last poem “thank god we never kissed” was dedicated to him….

PS…By the way vikas….if you are reading this….. I am sorry for mentioning you in public.

Thank God ! We never kissed,

How was your first kiss ?

Have you ever regret your first kiss ?

Thank God ! We never kissed. http://anelife16.blogspot.com/2017/02/thank-god-we-never-kissed.html

Dust on Love Letter

Have ever wrote any letter?
What it feels to read an old love letter.?

यादों की धूल Dust on Love Letter. http://anelife16.blogspot.com/2017/02/dust-of-love-letter.html

UnComplete Love

अधूरी मोह्बत http://anelife16.blogspot.com/2017/01/blog-post.html