I am going through many changes in my life…
So , today post is about my covert thoughts.
I was suffering from cold fever …..and still I was working in office…. It was not that I had lot of work to do but then I have to complete my work any how.( if I could do all pending work.) But next day I became ill very badly …I hardly did any work.
I decided to take leave from work and I returned home to my family.
After returning I was taking rest ,but my mind was still not in peace…. It was filled with all unnecessary thought..which also include his memories.
I don’t know why his thought came in my mind… May be because I was too much bore ; that I started writing an article which, remind me of him.. Or ,may be because his memories are always part of that unending disappointment.
* here ” his ” refers to a person(not so important person) .
But still in depth of my heart I respect him because of those lessons which he taught me..
And then I saw something in Facebook … I saw a sketch This sketch was made by him.. Yes he is a good artist… Another reason for my adoring him secretly…
As I am also an amateur artist … I always respect art.. But more than that I try to find feelings… Behind that art.
I have never been covert about my feelings.. So … I did what I felt. And I liked it.👍… His sketch was really good…
I thought if… I could also make sketch like that… from my pen tab which was kept unused from one month..
I thought if I could ask – how does he draw with such ease… My brain was very badly occupied with his thought that I even dreamed about him.. that night..
Next morning when I wake up … the first thing I did was Facebook…. And once again I saw another sketch made by him…. This time I didn’t like it … I don’t know why… May be because I saw a feeling behind it… Instead I started reading all those comments with sketch… I started searching for all those who all were tag to that sketch….I don’t know why I was doing that….
He has drawn someone who is part of his life…
Why should I care too much…..
I too have move ahead…. But this feeling of insecurity still last deep in my heart.
Who ? cares about ,what I feel… Than why?
There are lot of things I still don’t understand…, I was really confused….
And then I saw time in my phone…. It was 6 am in morning and I need to get up fast to get ready for work…. It was better to keep myself busy in work than ,thinking about some person who even don’t care if I exist..
I know I can’t escape many things in my life …but at least I am not hiding …
I know many of you readers will be confused….but to understand this post you have go through all my earlier post.
There are many people in my life…. Who just say they love me but never been there when I want them.
I remembered him because he was honest to me and rejected me in my face.
****16-9-16 Some things are least expected…..
I am sorry… If I am being too upfront about my thoughts & beliefs….
But this post is sincerely about my thought…. Not to offend someone….art…. life anything related….
Well…mujhe abhi kuch din phele hi pata chala hai ki log mera blog seriously read karte h😁😁🙌
Thanks to all readers !