Relation of Mismatch Love

For success full relation it is necessary to accept your partner’s drawbacks and if you respect him / her; it doesn’t matter what others think about you and your relationship.

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Firstly I want to clear that this is not my story….it is about a person whom I have known from last 8 years. He is a random guy who is never seen serious and is kind of person I would never respect.

If you ask my opinion about him I would say –I never liked his behavior because of the kind impression he had on me is not good. But still today I thought to write a post about him so that I could make others understand that – how human behavior change with time and position.

I also want to explain that why I am writing about him because I need some people like this person himself who didn’t understand my perception that we should  understand and respect individual choice and views. Let call this person as X. (I don’t want to mention his name because it could cause lot of mess)

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So here is his story –

A few years back X proposed his high school classmate but his classmate rejected his proposal because she thought that X is highly immature and unfocused about his career.  I have also heard that when X got rejected he cried lot and was pleading for his puppy love .Which is unbelievable to think ,that a person like X can do. But the girl rejected him very rudely. I felt bad for X because I can understand how it is  to be rejected in love.

  When we were young ….specially when we were teens these kinds of things are common. But we hardly forget; who our first love was and we still feel the pain of rejection.

So now  X have also forgotten that rejection and now have moved on with a sweet girl. Even though I have never met her I could say her sweet and ignorant because she is with X (A kind of  person who is  not worthy of her).  When I heard this ,I was  eager to know how this thing (event) actually happened that a sweet girl fall for a person like X. Even though  I am surprised  with  their relation ,I respect  and  salute  the girl for  accepting  a person  with all his demerits  and merits.

For success full relation it is necessary to accept your partner’s drawbacks and if you respect him / her; it doesn’t matter what others think about you and your relationship.

PS :- X is lucky that he got a girl  who accepted him ….but  it is also X responsibility to put all his effort to main their relationship .(the future is unpredictable )

One thing more I would like to say that people like X always point on others and make jokes on other  without  understanding that earlier  they were in that similar position or could be in that position. It is easy to comment and go , but it is difficult to accept the reality and show .

One side love ,expectations and the jealousy

inside I was more and more jealous with his girlfriend…..

love jealeousyHe was my Crush. We lived in same neighborhood ……I was crazy about him. Not that he was very handsome or a hot guy but he was he… I don’t know what made me fall for him. After so many complex drama, I got chance to be his friend…..but there was more I wanted to become.(please read my earlier post for more understanding. )
We can’t get what we actually we want, sometimes things gets different. I became his friend but he was already someone’s boyfriend. He told me that he is already taken and I was very disturbed by it. Yet, I was in hope that he  would care someday.

We talk like buddies and share our life stories…..but inside I was more and more jealous with his girlfriend…..
Even though I have never seen them together, I could imagine them together everywhere (even in my dream also). I thought why he doesn’t even care about my feelings…..the love I had for him.
One day he told me about his girlfriend everlasting sickness and I thought maybe it’s was my chance to be with him. But he also told me he will be with his girlfriend till the end. I was more shattered by his decision.
Later he asked me out (it was not a date) just to have some private discussion with me… I still remember the day… I was more nervous and bit suspicious about it… It’s one of the awesome days I ever had in my life. He was wearing loose half unbutton shirt … and things were going like a dream until he said those cruel words that “I can’t be with you anymore….. I can’t leave my girlfriend and I know what your expectation are….( well that day I was just expecting a kiss or something romantic ). And everything just ended like nothing happened ever …..The day I was totally destroyed. I could have cried loud and screamed at the top…but I remained like a dead soul. Only my eyes shed tears secretly .
The only wise person I had to talk (my sister) said to me that “boys are confused. They never understand what they wanted. Never believe their words. One day you will get a man who will actually love you the way you want.

PS:-Sometimes LOVE  take you to another world ….

SILENCE breaking Heart.

Sometimes I don’t  like to share my story but I know there  are many people out in this world who read my story(secretly)  and relate  themselves with this story. I want to  share the reality behind the words we often called as  love, passion and  feelings etc  but  they are simply words.The reality behind these words are sometimes different….

images (jkToday I will share the story  of  silence between two persons…… obviously the first person is me  and  second person is my silent friend. I wanted to remind him how the base of our relation was  build and which  is all in vain now.

We met through Facebook  ….. a social network site,  may be  that is the reason that now we never talk or chat . OK, I am not saying ..its wrong thing. Everyone meets new people and make friends through  Facebook . But we were not like them (at least this is  what I thought). You told me I am special to you and i trusted you , i told you all my secrets and  insecurities .  Although we were from different cities but one day you came to meet me and i saw your face … the real person you. You were lean and decent. I looked in your eyes ….they were yellowish white ( actually  you told me that recently you have  recovered from jaundice fever.) I still remember how I smiled at you and you were there with me…

Do you remember how we use to  go for dating  …it was fun. I  drive my scooter and you sat behind me. Those times were wonderful and I still cherished them. When we were away, we use to call each others  and sometime during night  we even had …. ( never to be discussed openly) talks. I know times never returns back, but I miss those calls from you.

We were close ..and some times we were like life-partners , we shared ever problems and secrets . I really miss those connections now.

I don’t want to blame you because I  know its not your fault…. long distances , phone bills, internet bills are really are the  things to be blamed .  Now we both are so busy…..so busy  that I never directly  call you…. or say ” hello!” . We both are trying to manage our own career and jobs….. Do you think I am giving excuse to you ?  may be yes…

I want to be honest ….I want to rebuild those connections again.  But are you honest to me….?  Did you ever said to me that “I am not happy with this kind of friendship  or love or dating system  we both are following.”

“NO,NO, NO and Big  NO”  You never said anything  to me… nor in Facebook ,nor in  twitter , nor  in whats App ,nor in hangout or had a phone call …. or anything  ….there was just a dead silent…

images (8)Sometimes i feel like why ???WHY  I AM doing this….writing a whole blog post on you. ...JUST TO GET YOUR DAMNED attention....AND BREAK THIS SILENCE  between us.

PS:- I know, i am quiet  bad writer who write about her own personal life …But if you have ever seen me in reality  you would  never  be  able to  recognize me because ever coin has two face. 

We all have one such person in our life who  is very important to us. Maybe that person is important because we make them feel important. Sometimes it is necessary for us to remind them, that its relation between us that only matters and not the person itself.

Challenges and Being Single by choice.

I am tired  and sometimes I feel like saying ” I quit”,but I can’t leave everything so easily. After so much struggle I want some results whether  it is good or bad.

This was what I learned in past month . I thought I will never write next post after “feelings to Share” ,but look today I am doing it again. (Bad habit of expressing my distress.)

The past month of my life was like flood of changes and I drowned very badly enough. The numbers of events happened one after the other that I didn’t got chance to reveal my feeling of happiness or to cry on the irony of my fate.

1) I finally completed my post gradation degree in commerce.Rather feeling happy about it I am sad because the marks I got are not good . I got second division which is shocking for me. I was regular ,attentive and decent student all these years and result I got after this sincerity was like ….taking shit for your hard work. After seeing my marksheet I was more shocked  , the marks given in one of the paper  were totally unacceptable . When I asked the  faculty  about some kind mistake in printing marks ,they said to me  that I was  absent in this paper ,which was totally untrue . I wrote an application for inquiry and the result I got was that, there was actually mistake from commerce department in forwarding of marks. I requested for correction in marksheet and they said I have to wait for one month for new marksheet. I am tired of waiting because one month  is over and I still have no news.

Once in a week I go to college asking for my marksheet and they reply negative , this incident is about Sarojini Naidu PG autonomous college Bhopal , which is one the best college of the city. I mention college name because if you ever thought visiting this college … Please never go for its reputation. I have given my precious Five years to this college and in the end I am regretting it.

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2) The second was good thing that happened . I took admission in design school or I should say an institutions which taught me to express myself in new way. I am learning to draw what I see around me. It’s like I am learning to read soul of people and things.  I am happy because finally I am doing something for my self. But the only problem is learning fees which is costly ; it’s difficult for me to pay fees  every month. Although my family can afford it, but it makes me feel guilty sometimes.

Do you think I should do some partime job rather than depending on my father’s income for fees.???

3) The last thing that happened was that I have stopped pretending of having a long distance relationship …

Yes, I am admitting it that I am solely single , and the person I was thinking to be my man is just another stranger whom I got to know, who made me feel like a good human being but not  good girlfriend or someone special. ( please don’t feel offended or cheated …if you read it. Because if we still have chances I don’t want  to ruined it or I think….

But by the  way you never read anything📄📄 .

PS: Yes, life is full of challenges . I am ready to taste it’s every flavour .

Being single by choice is right thing than getting stuck with wrong person .